Once I realized just how well my body responded to weed, I was able to harness these sensations during moments when I felt particularly anxious about sex. When I was 20, a guy I had been friends with for years came to stay with me for the weekend. We had recently begun flirting with each other and talking even more despite our distance, and I was nervous to see him because it had been so long since we’d actually spoken face to face. Since I’d known him for so long and he was still a virgin, I couldn’t stop fretting over the risk this posed to our friendship and the pressure I felt to give him a stellar sexual experience.
The first night he stayed with me, I felt just as tense as I’d feared I would. I wanted so badly to be intimate with him, but my body was