DEAR DEIDRE: I HAVE two beautiful children but I am not the mum they deserve. My ex was abusive but I managed to leave him. I miscarried soon after.
Then my lovely mum died suddenly. I was devastated, more so when my dad quickly got together with someone else.
I am 26, my children are a boy of three and a girl of five.
Last year I discovered my ex had abused our daughter and he is now forbidden any contact with the children. I hit rock bottom.
My brother uses cannabis and he told me it would help me cope. I am now stuck in a rut of using it to numb the pain. I